New Girl In the City

Leaving home was always difficult, though I was all set for my voyage of accomplishing my long-time dreams. Dreams help recognize your goals, but memories help strengthen your urge to reach out to them. New city, new environment, new college, new people, a whole new life-everything would be so very different from how it used to be. I love taking 'small-scale' risks, and thus keeping aside my insecurities and anxieties, I accepted myself as a person of the city, embraced, though not wholeheartedly, the novelty in everything that surrounded me. I still remember my first day in the new city, with my bags and packages and my dreams all arrived, but Me left behind at my comfort-zone, Home. With anxiety on the topmost gear, I entered college and found myself totally stranded amidst a huge, careless crowd. Nothing seemed to comfort me, and I felt I have made the biggest mistake of my life in risking my comfort, in getting away from my 'rigidity'. Stay at the relative's was highly uncomfortable and boring, and the city seemed nothing but a mess of noise and disgust, and homesickness made things still worse. But I never blame anyone for the decisions I take for my future. Thoughts of home always made me feel sad, and pangs of guilt haunted me, for having left such a peaceful and cheerful heaven. But I was never ready to give up. Things change in life, but ultimately, stability is attained. With lifetime companions called FRIENDS, life started working for me. The most interesting thing about me is the most favourite thing I find in me, that I induce a ray of hope, even at the time of utter desperation, and I would help myself fly from the ditch of darkness, and explore the path of light, life and love. I started loving the city, when I began discovering tranquility amidst mess, when life started becoming stable. Pangs of guilt, now got transformed into, sighs of relief, that I have a family to support and strengthen me whenever I falter or go wrong. Wandering through the very same crowded streets, by holding hands that ensure safety and happiness, life seems a celebration now!

The best method of tackling a problem is always to first find the source of the problem, and then eliminate it. Realising this, I shifted to a dwelling, my second heaven, full of life and love. My friends, and cute, little sisters here, the lovely time I get to spend with them, the life that I enjoy to the fullest here, all together have transformed my inner self's attitude of 'rigidity'. I now realise the effect of the new city on the old me. But, I feel that I am still the same, though my outer surface is polished now, by confidence and self-esteem, that makes me more bright and cheerful. It is just that I have started loving myself, that I have started respecting myself, exploring myself. Dreams that I had kept apart imagining them to be impossible for me, have come to my doors knocking, saying-Now that you are YOU, please complete the blanks you have left on me. Thanks to the new city, still new and interesting to me, for accepting the old me as I was, and am. I feel one with the huge city, and life seems to be an interesting game, obviously with ups and downs. If you stick to the downs, you'll end up living a life missing the luxury of ups, and enjoying downs with positive spirit!

Good day!